It's Sunday night almost 11 pm pst. I am currently unemployed and there is no prospect of work to be seen right now. I have 3 grown children and I am single. I am lonely. I am so used to having kids around and their friends and suddenly there is no one, I feel like I have outgrown my usefullness in life. My health is not the best but it is getting better, I quit smoking a while back and I do feel better physically but emotionally and mentally I am not doing so well. I don't have many friends anymore, because I don't drink and hit the bars anymore and I don't do drugs. I had a lot of friends that did both in the past and it's just not for me anymore. There is a man in my life but we will never be more than what we are now, buddies, friends, someone to chat with. It is an online thing. We will never meet.